Staying The Course

     I'm at a point in my depression where I can tell when it starts to act up. My heart starts to race, I break out in cold sweats, and then my mood starts to rapidly drop. This is a warning that I need to get busy fast. Unfortunately, For the past few days, old issues I thought were resolved have come back to haunt me. Old resentment boils back up and then my anger builds and builds until it becomes rage. This is not good at all because this is acting as fuel for the fire. I've had restless nights where I wake up in tears and cold sweats from nightmares. The good thing is that I know what to do now but it's going to take a lot of willpower and strength. Paraphrasing what C. S. Lewis said, 'when resentment rears it's ugly head, we must do everything we can to beat it back down.' I have beat these issues once and I can do it again. I will not give in. This very moment as I'm writing this, I'm working on resolving these issues. It will only make me stronger. It's high time that I get all these emotions and anger that I've held in for most of my life out of my system. I can do anything through Christ.This is a battle I will win. I do not post what my resentment issues are onto this blog because they are way too personal to share with everyone. If you know me well, then you may ask me. I am a pretty open person now thanks to my depression but I know the importance of filtering what I share. I thank you all for your love, prayers and support.