The Many Faces Of Depression

      Depression can come about in a few ways. Either a single event can trigger it or an accumulation of many events over an extended period of time can cause it to go off. My depression has definitely been building for more than a decade. My earliest memory is a bad memory and it goes back to when I was three years old. I will not share it here because it is too personal but if you know me then you may message me about it if you wish to know. It is at the core of my sadness, anger, and resentment. It has pretty much stuck with me my entire life. I have made some progress in healing but it still gnaws at me every day. This is something that I cannot resolve without the Lord's help. I pray every day but unfortunately I'm usually at a loss for words and i burst into tears.I don't believe in luck or coincidence so I must be going through this for a reason. This is my hurdle to overcome. It does help to talk to people about it but it's not something I can just go shout about. It's an extremely sensitive issue and it's my darkest, most shameful secret. Every time I hear the subject come up, my heart skips a beat and I find an excuse to leave the area. When I think of it, I choke back tears and rage starts to build in my chest. I will overcome it. I do not know when. It may be a long time since I've held onto it for so long