Depression hasn't been that strong for a couple days now. I'm under no illusions, however. It's not over and depression will be back. For now, I am looking forward to the next few weeks. Jobs are finally looking more promising and I am getting closer and closer to a relationship. I still reflect and pray for God's counsel every day to make sure I am ready for a relationship. I am determined not to emotionally invest so deeply that I become dependent on her. I am fully aware that a girl will not fulfill all my emotional needs but I would like the experience. I'm also making sure that I don't lose sight of what's important in life. I'm making sure that Jesus is my first priority and I am happy to hear that the girl I'm interested in also seeks to have Jesus as number one in her life as well.
There will be bad days but honestly, I am so experienced with bad days that I know what to do now. Every day, I am now actively tackling the tough parts of my depression. I'm going on an all out offensive. I'm doing my best to resolve my resentment, feelings of loneliness, and suicidal thoughts. Lately, whenever something starts to get me down, scripture pops into my head and that lifts me back up. Ha I know what scripture memorization is for now. It provides a defense and assurance in every painful and sticky situation. God is so great!
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