Independence

      The time has come for me to stop reaching out to people and return to being completely self sufficient. People will always let you down and/or anger you. In this world, it's a cycle that has no end. In the end, you can't trust anyone but yourself and God. My feelings are my own and nobody has the right to lecture me or anybody else on whether our feelings are right or wrong. They're just feelings. What truly matters is how you act on them. Are you going to control your feelings or are your feelings going to control you?It's your choice. You cannot dwell on your feelings because if you do, then all you are doing is feeding them.
       I am going to cleanse myself of all my desires and dreams because I do not believe that they will come to pass and they have only served to hurt me. The only way to make it in this world is to push forward. Ignore all hindrances. People have hurt me; much more than I thought was possible. I believe this is because I held in my feelings for so long and I lost the ability to process basic emotions and every single pain was magnified. People don't want to hear about your problems. Why would they? To them, you are just seen as someone who can't take care of themselves and someone who is a wuss.Their answer for you is to suck it up. If you can't accept or process their advice immediately, then they get frustrated and leave you. I see that as the epitome of cowardice, callousness, and abandonment. I pledge that I will never leave my friends in such a way as people have left me. One of my character flaws is that I am too trusting and loyal. I am training myself to filter my feelings and always be on guard. I will be shielding my thoughts and emotions from everyone but my true friends. My priorities Are Jesus and helping people in any way I can.  Those two things are all that matters.