Incomplete And Drained Of Hope

    I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so empty and heartbroken. Every time I see or hear about couples, I have to fight off suicidal thoughts and tears. I thought a job would offer me a way out of depression. It's what my therapist said but it has only intensified my feelings of loneliness and hurt. It's a constant dull ache and it hurts. It acts like a huge drain on my hope and I hold very little of it now. I truly feel dead inside and I feel like I am little more than an echo. A remnant. The effect that depression has on the mind and emotions is devastating. It acts like a parasite. It takes and leaves you feeling weak and hopeless. For me, it often brings me to tears and I am brought to my knees. I want God to make it stop so badly. I don't know how much more I can take. I need to keep fighting until my next therapist appointment. This cannot go on. I must find a way to heal