Sadness

     Depression has been pressing on my head like a helmet that's too tight. I feel so sad and hopeless. I constantly want to break down into tears because I hurt so much. Loneliness won't leave me. I always feel like a third wheel even when I hang out with friends because I know they have a boyfriend or girlfriend. That's what kills me. Being alone. My heart constantly aches and groans and I'm sick of fighting. I don't know what to do anymore. It just hurts so much. Happiness has eluded me for years. I don't believe in happiness anymore. I'm so used to feeling this way that I feel as if there's no other way I can feel