Night

     It's been a long time since I've felt this sad. I feel like there's no future or no hope. Everything is just dark and grim. I've never been with anyone and that humiliates me more than anything. I'm just embarrassed to even be myself. I just feel so pathetic. I've had it with being alone. I'm sick of it and something better change soon. It's not like I've been sitting on my hands waiting for something to happen. I've been out there. Seeking a mate for myself but everyone appears to be uninterested or taken. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. It all feels like a terrible nightmare