I apologize for not posting recently. It has been quite a tough week emotionally. Depression is one of those things that can just drag you down. It pulls a dark cloud over everything you see and think about. It's like a violent storm that refuses to abate. Depression today for me is interesting in it's occurrence. It ebbs and it wanes. Sometimes I'll spend time wondering if it'll ever go away. Sometimes it's just so hard to go on. Depression is something that always has you reliving moments of your past that were painful to you. You spend countless hours dwelling on it. The only way to fight it is to keep busy no matter what. Even if you go out for a walk or a drive. As for me, If I spend too much time dwelling and sulking on my woes then I can easily slip back into a pattern of suicidal thoughts so keeping busy for me is a must. You just have to have hope.
Forgiveness and letting go is crucial in moving forward out of depression. However, this is easier said than done. Both of these virtues are something that I am still working on to this day. I blame myself for many things that have happened. It's important to determine the source of this guilt and whether it's true or false guilt. Many times, especially during depression, it's false guilt because many people who suffer depression beat themselves up and hold themselves to ridiculous standards. But there are times when the guilt is real and that is when you need to come clean about it. If you don't then it'll only make you feel worse and it can be seen as a matter of pride and arrogance on your part. The Bible has great things to say about depression and how to overcome it but it's something you must be willing to pursue. It all comes down to if you want to be happy or not. Happiness is a choice. Happiness won't come to you if you just sit there and sulk. You must seize the day and break the chains of depression
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